First blog/ Random thoughts

So this is my first blog on a blog website. I must admit I kinda feel like a nerd for having one but, all the cool kids have um these days huh? 

Well lets start off with the topic of her:

Her name is Karli Kuharik and she is  the most exceptional girlfriend I have ever had. She is very sweet, loving, romantic,silly,funny and very caring. She keeps me on my toes half the time which is awsome cuase with her I never know what to expect. She thinks that she is too much of a burden for me ,but I don't think she realizes that I've had a few girlfriends who did nothing but mope in there self pity. She is nothing like that. She may not give herself credit where credit is due, like her looks (which are amazing btw, I cant even think straight when she is around), or her naturally beautifying physique. I don't think she notices other guys checking her out ,but I do. I love her feminism and her morals, becuase not many girls have those these days and they just throw there body around until one day it gets whiplash and gets hurt. I respect her and every desicion she makes, unless...its something I think that may cause her harm or otherwise ,but for the most part im good about it. I do really hate when she goes places with alot of people cause I always have this strange fear something may happen. I have to try and let that go because I don't want to be controlling and I hope I'm not I just try to keep her out of bad situations... It's kinda like protecting your teddy bear as a small child, You don't want to give it up to your parents to wash it becuase yopur afraid it may get ruined ,but at the same time you want it to be free of dust bunnies haha. You get what I mean. I love her to death and with all my heart. I couldn't ask for a better girlfriend ever. The one thing I wish she would do for me is tell me straight up how she is feeling instead of putting on a false front ,becuase I do care for her and I want to help ,but its hard to help when I don't even know when there is a problem. I LOVE YOU BABE...SINCE 1.18.08 till (insert infinity symbol here) =D

On other thought...

I'm rather upset that I got a slap in the face when Karli's dad said I couldnt steal her for the weekend. I mean I should feel bad for attempting to steal her from her family but, in my defense I rarely see her for more then a few hours and, I want to make that longer and I frankly don't care if I have to steal her from her family to accomplish that task. I mean cmon they see her everyday and, her dad sees her more then my dad sees me yet I still give up my weekends to be with her. I do that cause I have seen my dad 16 years of my life and 1 extra week won't kill either of us haha plus we are connected through phone ,web cams ,e-mail ,games ,and all that good stuff so we manage haha. Wow I feel like an ass for saying that but, a blog is for letting out feelings right? 

Moving on...I'm kinda sick of football. I love the sport to death but, My body can't take the abuse for much longer. I'm wearing thin and I'm breaking on the inside. Not just from hitting/getting hit but, also from a lack of social life. I miss hanging with friends. I miss being with my gf for more then 1 day a week and maybe  day on the weekend. I miss just having time to screw off and chillax and forget everything thats going on in the world. Missing all that hurts in it's own little way. I try and be strong and act like nothings wrong but, on the inside I'm missing parts of me. Also football has kinda taken away some parts of me and replaced them with others...parts of hate and anger replaced romance and good humor. I was always the funny guy and the kind of guy who would think of the most romantic things. Since football those areas of me have been pushed aside and people have noticed especially my gf because she even mentioned that I don't do the things I used to. By her telling me that though I've strived to equal out ways and try and bring back more of my romantic and funny side. The anger and hate comes from games and practice where I'm forced to make myself think of thoughts that get my adrenaline up. It's a good feeling to have adrenaline pumping through my veins but it does have after effects which just arn't me. So this is an apology to you (you know who you are if not heres a hint: milkshakes XP) I'm trying to bring me back and I will. I can't wait for football to be over so we can once again be a more interactive couple and see eachother and do more things.

Driving: 

Hmmmm I GET MY LICENSE NEXT MONTH WOOOT!!!!!!!!

Okay well this blog is rather long and kinda depressing but, I just had to get all of that off my chest (well what I call a chest). This actually kinda made me feel better haha. Though my back is killing me.. Boy it would be nice to have a massage tomorrow...wink...wink..

later